Just this once

Okay so I am sitting here thinking. I swear sometimes that is something I should just not do!

I had a great time with my cousins and their friends last night. And now part of me regrets it because it hurt another cousin.

What she said was true though. It's not like they regularly associate with me. Except for FB of course.

In my thoughts, it hit me, no one regularly associates with me. I have always been an odd ball I guess. The person last thought about in any situation. I would be lying to say that it did not make me feel good to be thought about for a change. Someone considered me for something other than a favor, or something inconsequential.

I know I tend to live my life in a little box that will include my immediate family, however, it can get a little lonely. My phone never really rings, so the fact that it is disconnected does not matter to me. I pay that much for a phone and no one even considers me important enough to call or text. Yes I could submit a text or two, but I am not going to lie I know they won't respond. And if they responded what would they say. Would they say, "Hey come hang with me" or 'Do me a favor.'

I thank God for the opportunity that I received last night. For a change I felt apart of more than my norm. Because people are afraid to step out of their comfort zones, they miss out on so much. I'm not too afraid, I just don't get many chances.

I got the chance to go to a real comedy show to see a real comedian. No complaints. Just glad for the experience. Not regretting the choices I have made in life, but wondering if things would be much easier without. And I know it would, but that would never make it worth it!

Signing off~