Define Nieve: . Lacking worldly experience and understanding or me in my younger years. I was questioned about a choice I made in my youth and really came up with lame answers. After much thought throughout the night I still don't know, but I realize that I am not as nieve, because there is no part of me that desires that from my past. Sometimes I consider the option, but I just can't get across the reality.
My personal desires have grown with me.
When I was younger, my self worth was a huge issue that I could not conquer. So I settled. Not for the best, but for what made me feel good at that time. Although my choice ended with grave consequence, it was a decision I would not change because it made me. However, if it were the EGO I have become today, I would not have given it a second thought.
I think this is something that is also affecting my marriage. Things I would have generally settled for in the past is beyond me. Now, not only am I strongwilled, I have grown a bit defiant and increased my strength in me.
I am noticing how I approach situations is also much different. There were things that would hurt me, but the statement 'that which does not kill you, makes you stronger' has become the defining factor of who I am. Instead of letting those things bother me, I have decided to do me.
Unfortunately this may not be something others in my life consider to be wise. But in the grand scheme of things, I have lived my life for so many other people for so long. I am going to enjoy ever opportunity provided to make me happy.
Given I would never do anything to endanger myself or my family, just if it is something I may want or DESIRE and it is not of the norm....I just might bite!
Time for a new adventure...New adventure here I come. Why? Because nieve is gone and I am WOMAN, and I suggest you get the hell out of my way!!!
A life without adventure, is no life at all! Who said that ME~
Signing Off~
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