The Hope of Love

As I lay in my bed, my mind is running at a steady pace trying to figure out the heart of a woman vs. the mind of a man.

It seems as though fate would have you to live and learn until that time comes when destiny will step in and seal that said fate.

I believe the bible states that "He that findeth a wife findeth a good and perfect thing." Therefore running or chasing after the man of your dreams and in many cases nightmare, is not supposed to happen. We often times let fear control our moves and make the heart perform acts that will give us that moment of pleasure, with the attachment of a lifetime of pain.

My mistakes in love, have seemed to put me in a place of hopelessness at one point, however, time and the opportunity to love again has reopened my mind to the thought that same hope that seemed to pain me is there for a reason.

No good thing is easily made. There are steps and processes we must take to ensure the success of anything in life. Relationships and love are no different.

There is an art in sacrifice. Sometimes you have to sacrifice your happiness for the greater good and find your mark on life. Your place in this world to know who you are so when that door represents itself again, you can walk into it with the knowledge of who you are and make for a successful relationship with that him.

It seems that the older I get the more my philosophy on love seems to change. At present my thoughts on love are this: "There is a measure of hope found in love that speaks to the soul. If that hope can ever be broken, that is your cue to recognizing that loves path is not the one that belongs. As long as that hope still lies and he finds your love in the same manner the bridge between the heart and soul can be met. This creates a lasting love, unbreakable by time, space or man."

Because of this thinking, I will continue to get to know who I am as a woman. And once the time is right, my divorce is finalized, and I have lived a life getting to know me for a while..HE WILL FIND HIS WAY TO ME!

Does this mean I will live a life thinking that he is out there waiting on me. NO. This simply means I can enjoy my time on this earth until the reality of who he is comes. Even if it is not my hearts desire. For now, the desires of my heart will be placed in the same way Mary stated, "I shall hide these things in my heart."

Hope is the root of all faith. Which is why I reference hope when dealing with human emotions. Because I put my faith only in God, who knows the master plan. Wisdom is given to those who can take the time to look at the greater picture. This is why in my youth I made so many mistakes. Now that I am coming of age, wisdom must kick in.

I will continue to be myself, make my mistakes, and when he finds me...not only I will see it, but his heart will know "IT IS HER!"