Got on my myspace, which is rare. Clicked on blog...this is something I blogged on Myspace May 7, 2008:

Just felt like writing....read nothing into it!

I melt like candy in the arms of the one I love. But when I sit down and consider it....is the love already gone. I make a swift move to find my place. Plan a way to save the day. Heart of a fighter, Strength of a lion, I can't let you defeat me because I am the heroine. But with time the battle scars are growing and new positions cross my mind. Do I give in to the Loniless or will my Pride not let me dive? I'm drowning, sinking, suffocating. The walls are closing in. Were my decisions sound or did I make a big mistake. The people say your doing it but the story seems to be a play. The drama daily unfolding, begging me not to stay. For inside I feel so empty. More than fear now has a role. My white flag is getting higher. I know not where to go. So for now I'll keep my distance. Keep my heart and thoughts to me, for sharing my pain and deceptions can't be good for anybody to see. How selfish can 1 be to take advantage of the heart. Misuse it and abuse it and tear it all apart. Instead of the soothing feeling of the safety I once felt: confusion, loneliness, and regret fill that space again. Depression trying to catch me, yes I have this one war left. I may have lost many battles but part of me still believes in myself. So if you understand me or know where I may be....please do not forget me and remember a prayer for me!



I was at a low point around this time. Making decisions that were life long. Glad to see I made many good decisions that brought everything full circle to happiness!

Not much to say other than that tonight...so in the style of a lady who knows when it's time to leave..Signing off~