I wake up with the desire to talk to you. I dream with the hopes of one day waking up next to your side. I lay in bed with the memories of your body laying next to mine. All the time remembering that I will never have you to myself, in the way that that my heart desires.
You speak of a life I could live. Although loyalty and love has you attempting, to make what you have work right and live the life you have been dreaming.
I could let you go and free myself from these thoughts that plague me, but the thought of not talking to you or having you in my day makes me feel as though my days will be neverending.
I fear that if I tell you I want you to myself, the pressure of what that requires will make you quiver and leave. That is definitely not what I desire. However my burning desire to love you has been set aside for the desire to see you flourish, no matter what as I support you through your trials.
In another time and space you would have seemed to be my soul mate, the one I could always adore. I consider the timing of years past and think had we met I would have been the one.
But instead I sit in silence and nurture the better part of us, our friendship is more important than any relationship we could ruin to part us. And yet because my destiny is not dictated by the present, I choose to let my actions and choices in this hour guide me to live freely in my tomorrow, which may someday include that which goes unspoken.
I love you and will enjoy this ride til we part! Dedicated to my U!! Signing off~
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