Ok I havent taken the time to blog in so long, and so much has happened lately that I don't know where to begin. I guess I will go smallest to largest. Kids are growing up so fast! Zharea is going to her second homecoming this weekend and turning 16 next month. Vyctorea is becoming a teen tis year, her body and personality exemplify that. The boys are playing football. Got some help in making them more manly. I suck at being one. And little Sara isn't so little anymore. Big mouth and all...they keep me busy with their schedules too. Well mom is doing well and adventures of raie in dc is always ever changing. Shedrick, my once love turned friend is still my friend there is just no love there like that and we have both moved on. I actually started seeing someone I went to school with for a while, every Wednesday for hump day, but essentially it ended when I met "the boyfriend". I am now divorced, seeing someone and in the last two months that situation has transitioned before my eyes. Some area I really don't know what to do. This is one of those cases that you know what the outcome will be but you hope against hope your faith in love and hope that true love exist steps in. Yes, rose colored glasses with delusions. Lately I find myself thinking about whether or not the risk is worth the action, but then I go back to think about how compatible we are and it makes it hard as hell. He has been here for all my new ailments and even the kids, but work and other stations are bogging down the schedules. Oh yeah, I got back into school and am taking 4 classes. I am maintaining, so I am glad. But really my love life stays on my mind. Don't have many,if anyone to talk to about and really care not to discuss it. Even when discuss it the conversation goes disgruntled. Lol. He has his strong it's gonna be okay opinion and I am realistic person at the end of the day, so that means, yes I have a tendency to think and talk things into the ground. I don't want him to go over seas, but part of me wants him to...I don't know. All I can do is pray. Sad part I can't really even blog in detail because of nosey people who will add their two cents and get mad. I knowmy body is exhausted....need a vacation!